Ok, so I know that I havent posted in over a year. Its the crazy life that I wanted I guess. Anyway, guess writing today is more for me, but maybe some of you will understand me better if you know the things in my head. So without further explaination.....
We have had Tyler for over a year and a half and are starring down the barrel of adoption precedings...but there have been issues popping up all over the place. We have said for quite some time that we would take any of Tyler's natural siblings to foster or eventually adopt. SO....we wait. Knowing, or at least thinking that there was some issue with our license because of the fact that we had two open spots in our home for almost two years and no children placed. But one night, Michelle (who's name has been changed just cuz she's a b*tch that would sue if she read my blog) comes to our home and tells us that Ryan is being abused in the foster home he is in and the foster mother has asked that he be replaced in a different home. So, we can have him, BUT ONLY IF WE GET RID OF OUR DOGS! BOngo, theressssss the issue that we have not been recieving placements. "Michelle" is afraid of our dogs! Not that she has given them a chance, but she is afraid of them. Well, we took 2 weeks, and tried to figure out if we could find someone to temporarily take them locally so that we could visit and take them back after the adoption....no luck. So we regretfully declined due to Tyler being so very attached to the dogs as protection and mental sanity on tough days. That was 10 weeks ago!
Theres been a couple things that have happened in the last week, and not really that important to dwell on, except for the fact that we left "Michelle's" agency and signed up as Foster Parents from the county CYS. At least they are not afraid of the dogs.
So here we sit, waiting for them to place Tyler's brother with us....toddler bed with cars bedding and a new TV in the bedroom. Waiting for life to deal a good hand so that my heart can be at peace.
Many conversations with family and church staff about the positives we are doing for these boys....sometimes seems non-helpful because he is not with us yet. We keep up the "good fight" because we can do so much, if only given the chance.